Authors note: This story was originally written in 1974. At that time the idea of a kid with a gun seeking revenge on a bunch of bullies was completely ludicrous, sadly its not so far fetched these days. I never posted this one before because there were other stories with the same theme at KMG 365

There they are, the second grader said as he nervously eyed the
bigger boys on the next street corner.
I know, his friend said confidently. But this time it will
be different.
Hows it gonna be different? They beat you up every day this week
and theyll do it again unless you run away like I do.
I told you, Stevie, my dad says only cowards run. Besides, the
boy said slyly as he crawled under a bush to retrieve something hed
stashed there on the way to school this morning, today I have this,
he concluded proudly, holding up a small paper bag.
What is it? Stevie asked sparing the bag only a quick glance.
His attention was still on the bullies down the street.
My dad calls it the Great Equalizer, the boy said dramatically
as he pulled something out of the bag. That something was still wrapped in
the dishtowel hed used to smuggle it out of the house. It was heavy
but just the feel of it filled him with new confidence. In his mind he was
the lone sheriff standing up to a gang of outlaws to make the streets safe
again. He was a hero. He slowly unwrapped it so Stevie would see that he
was a hero too.
Is that a real gun?! Stevie gasped nervously.
Yep. I took it from my dads collection. Well teach those
guys a lesson today. Come on.
Nuh-uh, Stevie said, staring at the gun wide-eyed. This wasnt
playing cowboys and Indians with toy guns in his back yard. This was something
different. Something scary. Im running! he declared and
went back the way theyd come. Hed go the long way home. He
didnt want any part of this.
Chicken, his friend called after him but he didnt care.
The boy with the gun held it behind his back and boldly crossed the street
to where his three tormentors waited by an empty lot. This time things were
going to be different!
Squad 51 was driving down this street on their way back to quarters after
a canceled run. Johnny spotted the four boys scuffling on the corner. Hey,
Roy, look at that. Three against one. Pull over. Im gonna put a stop
to this!
Johnny, Roy objected, rolling his eyes at the ceiling.
Come on, Roy, Johnny said impatiently. I know what this
is like. I was always the little guy getting beat up on. Now
Im big enough to break things up and save the little guy.
Go to it, Hero, Roy sighed as he pulled the squad over near the
fight. He might as well let Johnny do what he wanted or hed be hearing
about nothing else for the rest of the shift.
The three larger boys stood in a circle around the smaller boy playfully
shoving him around as Johnny approached them.
I mean it! Ill shoot you guys! the smaller boy screamed
angrily.
Johnny pulled one of the bigger boys back and stepped into their circle.
All right, break it up. Whats going on here? he demanded.
A cop! one of the 5th graders yelped.
Im not a cop. Im a fireman but whats all this? Three
against one, thats not very fair.
It is when he has that big, bad gun, the leader of the bullies
scoffed. He acted like he found it funny but he was really insulted that
this kid was trying to scare them off with a toy gun. As soon as this stupid
fireman left, he was going to teach the little creep a lesson.
A what?! Johnny was shocked. He looked at the smaller boy who
held the gun in his shaking hand. Johnny realized that the colt 45 revolver
the boy held was not a toy but he was sure that the kid thought it was. He
couldnt imagine where the kid had gotten the thing and the fact that
he had made Johnny furious. Gimme that, he snapped and grabbed
the gun away from the boy.
Somehow the gun went off. There was a loud bang and Johnny felt a burning
sensation in the left side of his head. Suddenly something wet and warm covered
his face. It flowed down his chin to his neck, shoulder and arm. Everything
seemed to be in slow motion. The blast had spun him halfway around. He put
his hand to his head. Something felt sticky. Then the whole world began to
spin and tilt crazily. He felt himself falling. Soon he saw and smelled the
grass that rubbed against his face but he could make no sense of anything.
He was too tired. He just closed his eyes and went to sleep.
Roy impatiently tapped on the steering wheel as the drama unfolded. Johnny
always wants to cure all the ills of the world, he mused as he watched
his partner attempt to break up the fight. He shook his head and suppressed
a smile figuring that the kids could probably take Johnny. Suddenly his light
thoughts disappeared as he heard a sound that made him quake with fear. He
was vaguely aware that the front tire on the passenger side of the squad
blew. His stomach was in his mouth as he tore out of the squad. It
couldnt be true. This didnt happen, he tried to tell himself
even though he saw Johnny fall.
Then he saw the gun in the startled kids hand. Oh my God,
he gasped sliding on his knees next to Johnny. He gently rolled him over
and checked for a pulse. JOHNNY!
Is he dead? one of the older kids asked nervously.
They were all pale and shaky now but Roy couldnt worry about them.
No. No, hes not, he said in a monotone. It sickened him
to see the blood gushing from Johnnys wound. He applied pressure to
it with his hands. Within seconds his hands were covered with blood. He needed
his equipment. Hang on, Johnny, he silently prayed as he ran to the
squad, yanked the things he needed out of the bays and ran back to his
partner.
He grabbed some bandages and once more applied pressure to the wound. Finally
the flow began to ebb a little and he could examine Johnny and assess his
condition more fully. He was unconscious. Roy forced himself to gather the
vitals just as he would have done for any other gunshot victim hed
been called upon to treat. He tried to operate as if this was just another
victim. Johnny deserved the best level of care he could give. Just as he
reached for the bio-phone he heard a loud siren. He looked around.
It was a police car. Vince Howard jumped out. We got a report of a
gunshot. What happened? Vince asked Roy as he arrived on the scene.
He didnt really expect Roy to answer under the circumstances. Hed
been a cop long enough to put two and two together. He didnt like the
answer he came up with in this case. He began looking around and taking in
the whole scene.
He did it! one of the older boys swore, pointing at the seven
year old who still held the gun although the recoil had knocked him off his
feet. The boy sat on the grass but he was in a stuporous state with his eyes
fixed on Johnny.
What are you doing with that gun? Vince demanded as he disarmed
him the correct way. Vince doubted hed get any answers from him. He
looked at the older boys, one of whom was bent over throwing up at the sight
of the blood.
Rampart, this is squad 51. How do you read? Roys voice
was shaky but he fought to keep himself calm.
Drs Brackett and Early were standing by radio at the base station, as was
Dixie McCall. Dr Brackett responded to Roy. Read you fine, 51. Go
ahead.
Rampart, we have a shooting victim with a head wound. The wound starts
at the left temple and extends over the ear. There was excessive bleeding
but that is now under control. Victim is comatose and grey in pallor. Pupils
are not responsive. Respiration is ten and shallow. Pulse is sluggish and
weak. Stand by for BP, Roy said as he struggled with to get the cuff
around Johnnys arm while using the bio-phone.
51, is there evidence of the bullet exiting the skull? Dr. Brackett
asked seriously.
Affirmative, Rampart, Roy reported stiffly, remembering that
something had caused the tire to blow out in the squad and he was sure that
it had been the bullet. He knew there had only been one shot.
Is transportation available, 51? Joe Early asked him, wanting
to begin a full neurological work up on the patient ASAP.
Negative, Rampart.
Ambulance is on the way, Roy, Vince told him sympathetically.
Hed made a report to his sergeant on his radio and had them dispatch
one.
Thanks, Vince, Roy acknowledged, fighting to keep his voice from
cracking. He then turned his full attention back to the patient and his
communications with Rampart. He forced himself to work mechanically following
their orders, trying to remain detached for Johnnys sake.
Continue to monitor vitals and transport as soon as possible,
Brackett concluded.
10-4, Rampart, Roy replied wondering how they could sound so
calm under the circumstances.
Vince squatted on the other side of Johnny hoping to lend Roy a hand or at
least some moral support. Its bad, isnt it?
Roy nodded. He was angry. Senseless, he muttered. So
senseless.
Yeah, Vince was equally disgusted. That kid is seven years
old and he already has the idea that a gun is the answer to all his
troubles.
The ambulance arrived and Vince helped Roy get Johnny onto the gurney and
into the ambulance. Can you bring the squad in? Roy asked him.
Sure thing, Vince said taking the keys that Roy offered him.
Its got a flat, Roy apologized.
Dont worry about it. Ill take care of it and get it to
you. I gotta get your statement anyway, Vince assured him.
It seemed like hours before they got to the hospital. Johnnys wound
began to bleed again as he was lifted onto the exam table.
CAREFUL, Roy yelled urgently.
Dixies eyes widened when she saw who the patient was. She could see
that Roy was about to go to pieces. Come on, Roy, she said firmly.
She slipped her hand under his arm and led him out of the treatment room
and into the lounge. He was moving like a zombie as she sat him in a chair
and fixed him a cup of coffee. What happened? she asked kindly
as she set the cup down in front of him.
He got shot. Roy was still stunned.
How? Dix coaxed. She thought it would be better for him if he
talked about what had happened instead of bottling it up inside.
He was trying to break up a fight. A bunch of kids.
Teenagers with guns, Dixie said with disgust.
Teenagers?! Dix, the kid that shot him was seven years old. Seven!
My son is seven. It was really starting to hit him now. A myriad of
emotions were vying for his attention. Fear, Anger, Disgust, Regret. He was
assaulted by one after the other so fast that he hardly had time to react.
He fought to remain in control as he sipped his coffee. I never should
have stopped, he finally said. He saw some kids roughing up a
smaller kid. He just had to get involved. You know Johnny.
But if I hadnt stopped... hed be all right now,
Roy admitted miserably.
And maybe one of those kids would be in that treatment room right now.
Or somewhere even worse, Dixie reminded him.
I didnt know about the gun. If I had I would have never let him
go barreling into it.
Of course you wouldnt but, Roy, this
isnt you fault, Dix told him firmly.
Hey, look at the time, he suddenly said after glancing at his
watch. Id better call the station. They wont know where
we are. Ive got to tell the cap...about Johnny. About what happened,
he stammered.
Are you all right? Dix worried. He nodded and she could tell
he was forcing himself to be as professional as possible. Use the phone
in here, she told him as she unlocked the door to a small office across
from the lounge where he could have some privacy.
Roy took a deep breath and tried to collect his wits and calm down before
calling the number for the station that would ring on the caps desk.
He wasnt exactly sure what to say. He still couldnt believe what
had happened. All he knew was that the cap had to be told and he had to do
it. In spite of his best efforts at remaining calm, his finger shook as he
dialed the phone.
Station 51, Captain Stanley speaking.
Cap, its Roy.
Where have you guys been. L A is looking all over for you. Is something
wrong with your radio?
Not that I know of--- Roys planned explanation was interrupted
by his agitated captain.
Its like you guys just disappeared. You should have ---
Roy interrupted the cap this time. CAP!
Is something wrong, Pal? The nervous shake to Roys voice
had not gone unnoticed. In spite of the caps dislike of the failure
in protocol of the squad to alert L A to their location, he was getting a
sense of dread he liked even less.
Yes, Cap. Its Johnny. Hes been shot, Roys voice
cracked with emotion.
SHOT?! How serious is it? A thousand questions occurred to him
all at once but he tried to remain as calm and professional as he could and
let Roy tell him what happened.
Its... its pretty bad. Head wound, Roy was starting
to lose his cool. Im at Rampart. Ill call you back when
I know more.
Okay, okay, Roy. Stay where you are. Ill notify L A.
Youre not hurt, are you?
Im fine, Cap, Roy assured him as he hung up. He was far
from fine but he hadnt been shot which was what he knew the cap meant.
Why had he stopped the squad and let Johnny play hero? Why had that kid had
a gun to begin with? He had no answers only more questions. What he really
wanted to do was to slug the wall but hed tried to punch out walls
before and hed always gotten the worst of it so he resisted and went
back to wait for some word on Johnnys condition.
The cap was stunned when he hung up the phone. He sat there at his desk for
a few minutes but then he felt the dire need for coffee so he headed for
the kitchen to get a cup before contacting HQ about the situation. Since
theyd been unable to locate the squad, it had been stood down anyway.
In the kitchen, Chet was preparing dinner while Mike and Marco read the newspaper
in search of places to take dates on their upcoming Friday night off. Chet
was still trying to convince them that the health department shut down was
not a true reflection of his favorite restaurant but the look on the caps
face caused him to interrupt himself. Whats wrong, Cap?
Gage has been shot.
What?! Howd it happen? Is he
okay?
He held up his hands to stem any more questions he couldnt really answer.
I dont know any of the details. Only that its a head wound
and its serious, he said glumly, as he poured himself the needed
cup of coffee.
Whod want to shoot Johnny? Marco wanted to know.
The cap shrugged. You know all I know. Id better call it in.
Damn! he muttered as he went back to his office.
A head wound, Chet said with a shudder. Even if he lives
he could have brain damage.
Poor Johnny, Marco muttered.
Damn guns! Mike slammed his fist down on the table in frustration,
displaying more emotion than Chet or Marco had ever witnessed from him but
they were too numb to really notice.
When Roy was able to pull himself together he walked back to the lounge.
Vince was there waiting for him. Together they were able to put together
a statement. As Roy was the only adult eyewitness to what happened, Vince
was hoping he could make some kind of sense of the incident for the police.
Roy told him all he knew and all hed seen but hed been away from
the action in the squad and didnt really see that much. They both knew
it was Johnny that Vince really needed to talk to, to get to the bottom of
this and that was impossible at the moment. They made small talk for a few
minutes and then settled into a companionable silence to wait for any word
on Johnnys condition.
Roy was lost in his own thoughts so Vince went over the statements he had
taken from the older kids. He considered them worthless. They each seemed
to be covering their own tails and laying all the blame on the younger kid.
He was the one with the gun but Vince wasnt buying the fact that he
was threatening them with it out of the blue for no reason. Hed seen
bullies before and was sure that the three fifth graders had provoked the
attack. The younger boy was still catatonic. Vince couldnt even get
his name out of him and the older boys swore they didnt know it. Hed
taken him into protective custody and taken him along to Rampart with him.
Someone was examining him now but they still had no ID on him. Hed
also confiscated the gun. It was now at the station. If it was registered
theyd soon know whose gun it was and they might be able to find out
who the kid was that way. If not, hed probably match up with some report
that a frantic mother made about her son not coming home from school before
long. Maybe the kids parents could shed some light on how hed
gotten hold of a gun. He figured the kid would eventually be okay. It was
Johnny he was concerned with. What if he didnt make it? That could
make a really stupid idea into a homicide. Hed love to see the guns
owner charged with accessory at the very least but that was up to people
much farther up the chain of command than he was.
Johnny had the feeling that he was spinning crazily even though it was dark.
He struggled to make some sense of his situation. Where was he? What had
happened? He forced himself to remember. Hed made Roy stop the squad.
Why? Oh yeah, the fight. Three big kids against one little one. That wasnt
fair. But the little kid had a gun. He could now see it in front of his eyes
as clear as a bell and the sight of it filled him with rage. He angrily slapped
at it sending it flying out of the kids hand. What are you doing
with that, you little idiot. Are you trying to kill somebody?! he
screamed.
Suddenly the darkness lifted and was replaced by blinding light. He blinked
as the room slowly came into focus. The first thing he recognized was the
startled face of Dr. Joe Early.
Doc? I...what happened?
Hello, Johnny. What happened was you knocked a very expensive piece
of equipment out of my hand and it shattered against the wall but Im
glad youre awake anyway, Dr. Early said pleasantly.
Dont you believe him, Johnny. It was only a pen light. Hes
been needing a new one anyway. How are you feeling? Dr Brackett
asked.
Ugghh. Ive been better. What am I doing here?
You skull was grazed by a bullet.
It was?!
Dont you remember what happened? Dr. Early asked him trying
to make the question sound more casual than he felt it was.
I remember there was a fight. Some kids were ganging up on another
one. Tried to stop it. Three against one. Johnny was forcing himself
to remember.
Is that all you remember? Dr. Brackett wanted to know.
It all came back to him right up to the point that he was when the bright
light chased his thoughts away. The little kid -- he had a gun. I tried
to take it away but it must have gone off. Owww.
Does your head hurt? Dr. Early asked as he once again tried to
lean in to examine him.
Like 1000 hangovers, Johnny sighed wearily. And Im
so dizzy.
Well give you something for that, Brackett promised. As
soon as Joe finishes his exam. Youd better bring Dr. Early a new light,
Nurse, he commanded the nurse who was in the room. Looks like
his old one finally bit the dust.
Im sorry, Doc. I was seeing that gun in my mind and I guess I
thought it was that I was swatting away.
Dont worry about it, Johnny. Its perfectly understandable.
Im glad that Kel thinks so lightly of the broken pen light because
the batteries in mine were low so I borrowed his, Dr. Early said
lightly.
What? Bracketts hand automatically went to the pocket in
his coat. Sure enough his pen light was gone.
Ill pay for it, Doc, Johnny said weakly.
No you wont, Johnny. Joe borrowed it, hell pay for
it, Brackett assured him. I didnt realize that he was such
an accomplished pickpocket.
Hey, a guy has to do something to pay his way through medical school,
you know, Dr Early quipped as he finished up his preliminary neurological
exam. Id say you were pretty lucky, Johnny. Another half an inch
---
I got shot? Johnny was still having trouble figuring out what
happened and how he got to Rampart. He could only remember up to a point
and that bothered him.
Yes you did, Kel told him calmly. People with head injuries,
even minor ones tended to be a bit confused.
Good thing I have a thick skull, Johnny said with a half smile.
Thats for sure, Brackett agreed with a laugh. Look,
theyre gonna take you upstairs. Im gonna go and find Roy and
let him know youre okay. Then Joe and I are going to go look through
a medical supply catalog so I can pick out a nice, expensive new penlight
for him to buy me.
Doc, I still feel kinda dizzy and nauseous.
Let me get you something for that, Joe told him.
Okay, Joe, but dont you forget to stop by my office later,
Brackett said as he left. He was sure that Joe wouldnt bother to stop
by but he had to keep up appearances in front of Johnny. It was well worth
the price of a penlight to have seen the expression on Joes face when
Johnny called him a little idiot and slapped it out of Joes hand.
Kel walked into the lounge where Roy, Vince and Dixie were all looking very
grim.
How is he? Roy demanded as Brackett went over to pour himself
a cup of coffee.
Well, like he says, its a good thing he as a thick skull.
He says? Roy wasnt sure hed heard right.
Its not as bad as we first thought. It was really not much more
than a crease but it was at close range so we are keeping him here for
observation. All the tests look good though so Id say that the prognosis
was excellent.
When can I see him? Roy demanded, forgetting for a minute that
Brackett was not someone easily pushed.
Itll be a few minutes. Theyre just getting him
admitted.
I have to see him too, if thats okay. I need to know what exactly
went down for my report, Vince told him.
He said he tried to pull the gun away from the kid and it went
off.
Well, that probably makes an accidental shooting. Thatll be a
little easier on the kid but Im betting he has nightmares about this
for a long time to come. How is he, by the way?
Youll have to check with Morton on that. Joe and I were with
Johnny, Brackett said, up until this point, he hadnt given the
kid a thought. Where the hell did a kid get a gun to start
with?
Thats what I want to know. This could have been a whole lot worse.
This trend toward everybody wanting a gun is the worse thing that ever happened
to this city, Vince stated.
Its not just here. The whole countys getting that way,
Dixie pointed out sadly. Its too easy to get a gun these
days.
I wish it was a lot harder but even if we could put more restrictions
on legal gun sales that still leaves all the punks selling Saturday Night
Specials and the thugs that steal guns, Vince told her.
Those gun shops look like jails when their closed with all the bars
on the doors and windows. They cant be that easy to break into,
Kel said.
Theyre not but who needs to break into a gun store when houses
are so easy. People who buy guns to protect themselves from robbers are high
on the target list of burglars even if they might not have anything else
worth stealing. Instead of keeping crime away from the house they might as
well put out the welcome mat. To say nothing of the fact that it makes the
odds for an accidental shooting of a family member go straight through the
roof. Im betting this kid got that gun right from his parents
nightstand. Vince did not cloak the disgust he felt at the situation
at all.
Hows that? the nurse asked as she got Johnny settled into
a bed on the 4th floor.
Fine, he said sleepily.
She entered the time and the vitals shed just taken onto his chart
and turned to go. Shed heard all kinds of stories about the infamous
Johnny Gage but none of the antics that shed been warned about seemed
forthcoming. She wasnt sure if she was happy about that or not. She
stared at him a moment but he appeared to be sleeping. As she left another
firemen came to the door. It wasnt visiting hours but they seldom stopped
other professionals from seeing patients. In this case, it was probably a
friend of Johnnys and it had probably been okayed by someone since
Johnnys name would not appear on any patient list yet. Dont
stay long, she cautioned the fireman from force of habit establishing
that he was a visitor and this was the nurses turf.
Roy nodded as the nurse left. He stared at Johnny a minute wondering if he
should wake him. Johnny? he whispered.
Johnny opened his eyes.
How are you feeling? Roy couldnt help but smile. Hed
nearly made up his mind to the fact that Johnny wouldnt make it so
it was great to see him.
Kinda spacey, Johnny admitted.
Roy figured that that might be due to the medication. He noticed the IV in
the back of his hand but his bandaged head drove the idea home that it might
not be something induced by medicine. Still, he sure looked better than he
had last time Roy saw him. He knew that image would stay with him for a long
time to come. You comfortable enough? Roy asked out of the need
to say something. To do something for his friend.
I guess so, Johnny said quietly.
Man, you really scared me to death, Roy finally admitted.
I dont remember all that much. The whole thing doesnt seem
real.
It seemed real enough to me. Im just glad youre all
right. Roy shuddered at the memory of what had taken place but tried
to drive the mental picture away.
Me too, Johnny sighed.
Whats the matter? Roy demanded. His nerves were all still
on edge.
Im kinda tired.
You go ahead and get some rest. Ill come back and see you later.
Okay?
Uh-huh, Johnny could barely say around a yawn. Then he closed
his eyes and drifted off to sleep.
Roy quietly went left the room. Vince was waiting in the hallway.
Hes asleep.
Ill catch him later then, Vince said. I guess
theres no real hurry since it looks like an accidental shooting and
we know who the perp is.
Perp? Its a seven year old kid, Roy reminded him as they
walked to the elevator. Again he thought about the fact that he had a seven
year old. What if it had been his son that had done this?
Each man was lost in his own thoughts during the elevator ride back down
to the E R. When the doors opened Vince was greeted by two cops who were
waiting for him. One handed him the keys to his cruiser and Vince remembered
to return the squad keys to Roy. Youll never guess what?
the younger of the two cops said.
Suppose you tell me then, Vince said. He was in no mood for
games.
The kid that had the gun is the son of Jed Ridgeway.
Whos Jed Ridgeway? Vince asked glancing at Roy who looked
equally in the dark.
The head of one of those gun clubs that do all those ads against gun
control legislation. It was his gun. Looks like the kid took it to school
because some kids had been picking on him. If the old man had taught him
to throw a right hook instead of that he has the right to a gun, none of
us would be standing here now, the older cop commented.
Thats him over there, the younger cop told Vince. He nodded
toward a short man with thinning sandy colored hair who nervously paced in
front of the plastic seats in the waiting room. He looks taller on
TV, dont he?
Vince had to get a statement from him so he walked up to him. There was a
woman sitting in one of the chairs. She was quietly weeping. She had a Kleenex
bunched in her hand and she was constantly wiping her eyes with it. She looked
up at him with fear-filled eyes.
Mr. Ridgeway?
Yes yes, the man answered spinning around. He was sweating profusely
although it was not hot in the waiting room. Hows the fireman?
he asked Vince.
It looks like hes going to be okay.
Oh thank God. This is my wife Nora.
How do you do? Im Officer Howard. Im afraid I do have some
questions to ask you about how your son --
Todd, Mrs Ridgeway told him. His name is Todd. They wont
tell us how hes doing, she sobbed.
Im sure a doctor will be able to answer your questions soon.
In the mean time, I do need to know how he got a hold of a gun.
He knew better than that, Jed Ridgeway told Vince emphatically.
He knows hes not to touch any of the guns unless Im there
with him. Hell be punished for that, you can rest assured.
How can you talk about punishing him. We dont even know if hes
all right. The nurse said he was catatonic. Do you know what that means,
Jed? his wife shrilled.
It means he just needs to snap out of it and face things like a man.
I always tell him--
Hes not a man, Jed. Hes just a little boy.
Hes.....hes...my God! youre not going to arrest him are
you? she asked Vince. She was bordering on hysteria.
It appears to have been an accidental shooting, maam. Vince
tried to comfort her. But a man has been shot so we have to conduct
an investigation.
Hes just doing his job, Nora, Jed assured her but his tone
of voice and manner suggested that he didnt approve of Vince or his
questions.
Do you keep your guns locked up, Mr. Ridgeway?
That would be pretty foolish, wouldnt it, Officer Howard. If
someone breaks into the house I want a gun to be handy to deal with him.
The time it takes to unlock a gun case could be all it takes for him to shoot
first. The Second Amendment guarantees me that right!
Roy hadnt really intended to follow Vince over to the couple but somehow
he found himself there and unable to stay out of it. This could have
turned out very differently, Mr. Ridgeway. Those older boys could have easily
wrestled that gun away from your son. Suppose it had been him who had been
injured in the struggle. Suppose instead of that treatment room he was in
the O R or even the morgue. How much solace would the Second Amendment give
you then? Roy hadnt meant to say it. It just came out.
Mrs. Ridgeway immediately became hysterical.
I suggest you keep your mouth shut. Look at how hes upset my
wife. Cant you do anything about him, Officer? The man sounded
very threatening.
Im afraid not, Mr. Ridgeway. Since youre so familiar with
the Constitution, youve undoubtably heard of the First Amendment which
states that I cant interfere with his right of free speech. Since it
was his partner that was shot, hes a little on the testy side today.
Well talk later on, Vince promised, gently guiding Roy away from
there before the situation escalated.
I dont know what got into me, Roy confessed when they were
a safe distance away.
It was something that asshole had to hear, Vince assured him,
but I think maybe you ought to go back to the fire station
now.
Good idea, Roy agreed and he headed out to the parking lot to
get away from Ridgeway before he did something that Vince would have to arrest
him for.
There was no one at the station when Roy got there. He suddenly realized
he was hungry and he felt like celebrating. He went to the fridge and heard
Henrys tail start to thump on the leather couch as he opened the door.
Sometimes this was the only sign the Basset was even alive. Roy took out
a plate of leftover meatloaf and walked over to the couch with it.
Johnnys gonna be okay, Henry, he told the dog and tried
to tell himself that Henrys now excited tailwagging was about the news
not the meatloaf, which he shared with him.
By the time theyd polished it off, he heard the engine pull into the
bay. At least he was sure the other guys would share his excitement at the
good news. The engine crew came into the kitchen and hit him with questions
all at the same time. He was so overwhelmed that he barely noticed that
Johnnys replacement was Enrique Diaz who was a paramedic that he and
Johnny had trained. Enrique was also Marcos cousin and the two had
a running competition for the title of best cook in the family. No one but
Marco or Enrique cooked the whole time that he was training at 51. Roy remembered
all the wonderful meals theyd had during that time and the fact that
hed managed to gain 8 pounds. But he didnt care about the pounds
at the moment. He was in the mood to eat some good Mexican food.
Thats enough! the cap finally said forcefully. Give
Roy a chance to answer. Wanna tell us what happened, Pal?
Well, we were driving along minding our own business when he noticed
some kids on a street corner fighting. It was three older kids ganging up
on one little one so naturally, Sir Lancelot had to charge
into it. What we didnt know was that the little kid had a gun, when
Johnny tried to take it away it went off. Took him right here, Roys
voice shook a little as he indicted the spot on his own head.
But hes gonna be okay, you said so earlier, Marco
insisted.
Roy didnt really remember saying that but he must have amid the volley
of questions they asked when they first saw him. Like he says, its
a good thing he has a thick skull.
Hes awake, Chet said hopefully. He was afraid that Johnny
might be in a coma or something even worse.
Hows he feeling? the cap asked.
Kinda of groggy and out of it which might be the meds. They want him
to rest and you know thats not exactly his style. He does have a hell
of a headache though.
I can imagine. He was damned lucky. How long is he gonna be laid
up?
Cant say, Cap. I know that theyll want to keep him under
observation for a good 48 hours but after that itll probably depend
on how fast he heals.
What a rotten thing to have happened, Chet said seriously. But
if it had to happen, Im glad it happened today.
Why today? Roy asked.
Because it was Johnnys turn to cook and now instead of Johnnys
hamburgers, we get to have whatever wonderful thing Diaz whips up.
You always only think of your stomach, Marco complained. No
wonder you look like that.
Like what? Chet demanded, sucking in his stomach. Ill
have you know I weigh the same now as I did in high school.
So you were fat in high school too?
Who are you calling fat? Youre just jealous because I think your
cousins a better cook than you are, Chet retorted.
Roy just took it all in. He needed some normalcy after what had happened
but he was only too aware that it would normally be Johnny and Chet who were
having this spat. Still, he was glad hed be working with Enrique during
Johnnys absence. It was good to work with someone you knew, who knew
the way you did things. Both he and Johnny had enjoyed having Enrique as
a trainee. He had taught them the Spanish for many of the phrases they used
in their work and enough to understand most responses that they might encounter.
Enrique did manage to make a great meal out of the ingredients that were
on hand. Other than the fact that he was a much more imaginative cook, Enrique
was very much like Johnny. He was outgoing and talkative, he turned on the
charm around the ladies, his hair was even just a tad bit longer than even
the new, more relaxed regulations allowed. Roy found this both comforting
and alarming at the same time. Enrique was regaling them with stories about
a recent family get together as they ate, one in which Marco managed to find
himself trapped up a tree after rescuing the ball the kids were playing
with.
Dont think I dont know who made off with that ladder,
Marco snarled at him although everyone knew it was feigned anger. Marco was
really very proud of his younger cousin who had followed him to the fire
department instead of going the way both his older brothers had gone and
getting into trouble with the law.
You were just lucky I was there to rescue you, El Primo, or you might
be up that tree still, Enrique laughed.
The men of station 51 needed to laugh and Marco and Enrique knew it. They
continued their mock battle to keep everyones mind off of Johnny until
the tones sounded sending the squad to the aid of a woman in labor at a grocery
store.
Later on they were at the nurses station telling Dixie about the dramatic
birth.
So when that little lady grows up and tells her friends she is a born
shopper, shell have documentation to back it up, Enrique was
explaining happily, Besides the store is going to donate free diapers
for a year so Mama and Papa will be glad of it too!
Dixie was glad that they were cheering her up. It helped make being working
a double shift more bearable. She was not too tired to notice that Roy was
faking his good spirits.
Enrique noticed too. Can Roy go up and see Johnny for a while? Ill
stock up, Enrique volunteered.
And if I asked the new nurse, Elena to come help you, youd both
be happy campers, right, Romeo?
Dixie, Im crushed. You know my heart belongs only to you,
Enrique vowed.
I didnt think Id ever find anyone who could shovel more
bull than Johnny, Dixie said rolling her eyes.
Johnny did help train him, Roy reminded her. Is it okay
if I go up and see him?
Itd probably do you both good. You and Johnny that is. Senior
Diaz is beyond help, Im afraid.
You cut me to the quick, Nurse McCall, Enrique protested dramatically
as Roy got on the elevator. Say hi to Johnny for me. Tell him Ill
make him some decent food as soon as theyll allow it, his new
partner called after him. Another thing that Enrique and Johnny agreed about
was the quality of hospital food.
Roy quietly pushed Johnnys partially opened door open the rest of the
way. If Johnny was sleeping he didnt plan on disturbing him. He drew
closer to the bed. Johnny had a washcloth over his eyes so he didnt
know if he was awake or not. Johnny? he whispered.
Roy? Johnny asked weakly, lifting the cloth for a few seconds
than pressing it back in place.
Yeah its me? How are you doing?
Oh great, Roy, just great, cant you tell? he said
sarcastically. My head is killing me. Im nauseous. The light
hurts my eyes which doesnt really matter since I cant open them
anyway because Im seeing triple spinning images of everything in the
room. Hell, Ive never been better.
All through Johnnys tirade the main thing Roy noticed was how weak
his voice sounded. Otherwise he might have thought his complaining was sort
of a good sign.
Do you want me to ring the nurse? Maybe they can give you
something.
Already tried that. Cant keep anything down. They claim to have
added something to the IV but if they did, its not touching my symptoms.
This whole thing just plain sucks, Roy. Maybe Id have been better off
if that bullet had been another half inch to the left.
JOHNNY! Dont say that. Dont ever say that!
Yeah I know, I know. I should be glad to be alive but at the moment
the alternative looks better. At least I wouldnt be in all this
pain.
Look, partner, I know you feel bad and Im really sorry but you
have to hang in there. The pain will go away. Youll start feeling better
and before you know it, youll be out of here and back at work fighting
with Chet, honest, Roy promised.
Sorry Im being such a pain in the butt, Johnny said with
a heavy sigh.
Dont worry about it. I know youre feeling really lousy
at the moment. If you want to gripe about it go ahead and gripe at me. What
are friends for?
I dont want to gripe. It doesnt do any good anyway but
Im tellin ya, Roy, if people knew how the hell much it hurts
to be shot they wouldnt think guns were so damn wonderful.
I agree with ya there. I know Id gladly give up my Second Amendment
rights if it got all the guns off the streets, Roy said remembering
his go-round with Jed Ridgeway.
You know what they say if guns are outlawed only outlaws will have
them.
Even if that was the case, wed see a hell of a lot less gunshot
wounds. How many accidental gunshot wounds could be avoided that
way?
I dont think Id feel any better if someone had shot me
on purpose, Johnny pointed out.
Im just saying if Dads guns were illegal, hed be
hiding them and the kid might not have gotten a hold of one.
Youre flogging a dead horse, Roy. Guns are here to stay, Im
afraid but there should be some way to at least keep them out of the hands
of kids. I dont think thats asking too much, do you?
I sure dont, Roy said vehemently.
So what are you doing here at this time of night? Johnny asked,
changing the subject to get his mind off of his condition.
We just brought in a women whose baby decided that the Ralphs
on 14th Street would be a good place to be born.
She delivered at the store?
Right in the frozen food isle.
A smile touched Johnnys lips in spite of his pain. Who you working
with? he thought to ask, almost hoping that Roy would be suffering
with Brice. Misery did love company.
Enrique Diaz. Good thing too because no one in the store was bilingual
and the engine wasnt rolled on the call with us.
Like Marco would be any help. Hes fainted twice on ob calls
hasnt he? Johnny remembered.
Technically only once. That other time he claimed that the fainting
father knocked him down and he hit his head, Roy corrected. But
Enrique says to tell you that hell make you some decent food as soon
as you feel up to eating it.
Why didnt he come up with you?
Dixie thinks it has something to do with the new nurse working
supply.
What?! Johnny sat up, momentarily forgetting his pain.
Hed better stay away from her, I --ugh,
Take it easy, Pal, Roy eased him back down. If youre
interested in her, youd better concentrate on getting better so he
doesnt horn it.
Hed better not even think about horning in. Dont
you let him, Roy, you gotta help me out here.
Okay I will. You just take it easy, okay? Roy thought that
Johnnys interest in the nurse might be a good thing.
Its the damn vertigo thats the hardest to take, Johnny
admitted.
Maybe youd better just lie still and keep your eyes covered.
Ill go down and get Enrique away from Elena.
Elena? I thought her name was Sally.
Maybe theres more than one new nurse.
I havent met any Elena.
Well, youd better just hurry up and get well then, youre
falling behind.
You just take that Enrique back to the station and away from all the
nurses, Johnny told him.
Okay. You just concentrate on getting better, Pally.
Pally? I thought I was Junior.
Well, just this once you can be Pally, Roy grinned.
I dont like that any better, Johnny admitted with a sigh.
He couldnt believe how much this simple conversation had worn him out
but he tried not to let that on to Roy.
You just rest up and get your strength back. I know the other guysll
want to stop by tomorrow and Ill tell Joanne that you need some of
her medicinal brownies.
Better hold off on those till I can keep them down, Johnny advised.
This time he couldnt hide the yawn.
Okay, whenever you feel up to them. Id better hit the
road.
Yeah. Keep Don Juan away....from....my... nurses.....
Roy suspected that hed fallen asleep so he left. On his way out he
stopped at the nurses station on that floor. He was happy to see Carol
Williams sitting there. She often worked in the E R so Roy knew her. He
didnt know nearly as many nurses as Johnny did.
Carol looked up from the chart she was working on. Oh, hi Roy. How
are you?
Im fine. Its just that..um I was wondering---
How Johnny was doing, she guessed. Well, hes having
a little problem with his middle ear. Thats why hes experiencing
vertigo. There was a lot of tissue damage and swelling and they hope that
that is what the cause of the trouble is.
They hope?
They really wont know until the swelling goes down which will
take a little time.
In the meantime, he has to suffer?
They dont want to overmedicate. That might mask some symptoms
we really need to be aware of to keep on top of his condition, she
explained.
Roy didnt like it. He could see that it made sense medically but he
hated to see Johnny so uncomfortable. He didnt even want to think about
what permanent damage to Johnnys middle ear would mean. It could affect
his ability to do the job. To Johnny, losing this job would be worse than
losing his life. He decided to keep this info to himself and hoped for the
best.
He managed to keep himself in check until later that night when they were
watching an old western on TV. On one of the commercial breaks there was
an ad speaking out against a gun control law that the state legislature was
considering. The spokesman on the commercial was none other than Jed Ridgeway.
Roy realized hed seen this commercial before but hed never paid
any attention to it. Now it infuriated him so much that he had to leave the
room. He found himself in the caps office writing a letter to his
representative asking him to vote in favor of the bill. It might not do a
bit of good since the anti-gun control lobbies had so much money behind them
but at least he felt like he was speaking out and letting his voice be
heard.
The next morning he called Rampart and spoke to Dixie before he left the
station. It was quieter there than the DeSoto household at breakfast with
Joanne trying to get both kids on the bus with the right lunches, backpacks
and all the vital paperwork and/or science projects that they required to
make it through the day.
Hi Dix, its Roy DeSoto, I was just wondering if youve had
a chance to get an update on Johnny yet.
Its the first thing I did when I got here. Im afraid he
had kind of a rough night. Theyve determined that he does have some
damage to his middle ear so theyll be doing surgery this
afternoon.
They can fix it?
Theyre pretty sure that they can, yes.
He agreed to the surgery?
Yes he did which speaks volumes to how much he was suffering since
they will have to shave the rest of his head to do it. Why dont you
call the floor later on tonight and check with the nurse on duty. Hell
be pretty much out of it till then so theres really no point in any
of you coming by. But dont worry, Roy, hes in good hands. You
know that.
Yeah, I know. Thanks, Dix, Roy said as he hung up the phone.
He felt disappointed that he couldnt visit today but he was hopeful
that the surgery would correct the problem. If it didnt, he didnt
know what Johnny would do.
Roy didnt get a chance to see Johnny until his next shift although
he had called several times and talked to him twice. Both times he seemed
pretty out of it but the floor nurse had assured him that he was heavily
medicated to keep him still. Roy and Enrique went into his room about mid
morning. Enrique gave him a covered bowl of something that smelled delicious
and had driven Chet crazy at the station.
Johnny was even up for eating some of it but complained that his appetite
had not yet returned. Enrique wished Johnny well and then excused himself
to go see if he could locate Elena, whom hed taken to the movies last
night.
I cant believe he got a date with that fox, Johnny
complained.
I thought you didnt know her.
It was Elena Salazar. The other nurses call her Sally. I talked to
Dwyer on the phone and he straightened the confusion for me.
Guess you trained him a little too well, Junior, Roy laughed.
I created a monster, Johnny agreed sadly.
You look a better.
Better?! How can you say that?! You know whats underneath this
turban? Johnny asked with exaggerated distress as he pointed to his
fully bandaged head.
What?
Nothing. Thats what -- aw quite laughing. I mean no hair. Im
as bald as Yul Brenner.
Joanne and her friends consider him to be very sexy.
Yeah well, I bet theyre all married. I dont care what married
women consider sexy. I care what single women consider sexy! Johnny
began one of his classic rants. To say nothing of what Chet and the
other guys are gonna say. I can just hear all the stupid scalping jokes
now.
Johnny had just gotten up a head of steam when a woman neither of them knew
came into the room. She was young and pretty but the rock on her left hand
told Johnny that she was taken which ended his real interest in her.
Mr. Gage, Im Doctor Dillar, she said.
Doctor? Most of the doctors Ive seen the last few days were wearing
lab coats. Johnny was sure he had been poked and prodded by every medical
professional in LA County the last couple of days and he wasnt eager
to play guinea pig for one more no matter how pretty she was.
Im a psychologist, she began but Johnny interrupted her.
Oh come on, Doc, the last thing I need is a shrink. I might have said
some stuff that was misinterpreted before when I was feeling so crappy but
trust me Im not about to do harm to myself or anyone else.
Honest.
Im glad to hear that, Mr. Gage, she said with a very engaging
smile. But that is not the reason Im here. Im here on behalf
of a patient Im treating. Todd Ridgeway.
The name doesnt mean anything to me, Johnny said
honestly.
It meant something to Roy. The kid who shot you.
Dr. Dillar looked at Roy suspiciously.
This is my partner Roy DeSoto. He tends to be kind of a mother hen
at times, Johnny explained.
Pleased to meet you, Mr. DeSoto.
Was the boy injured? They never told me that and theres a lot
I dont really remember.
He wasnt physically harmed but Im afraid what happened
has sent him into a kind of shock and I was thinking that if he came and
saw you it might help him to come to grips with what happened a bit.
Sure if you think it would help him, Johnny told her. He didnt
have all the details but he could imagine it was a scene that would have
scared a little kid.
Roy suddenly felt awkward. Maybe I should go.
If Mr. Gage doesnt mind, it might be better if you stayed. According
to the police report, you were a witness.
I dont mind, Johnny said. I have a few questions
myself.
Well, I was in the squad. I didnt really see that much but if
it will help, and if I dont get a call, he said lifting the HT
up so she could see it, I dont mind staying.
Dr. Dillar went to the door and motioned someone into the room. Mrs. Ridgeway
came in holding onto her sons hand. He still appeared to be somewhat
catatonic as she led him into the room.
Todd, the doctor said, this is Mr. Gage. Hes the
man you shot.
Todd continued to stare straight ahead, seemingly unaware of his
surroundings.
Todd, his mother said with unmasked frustration, Mr. Gage
is hurt because of what you did. You made a big mistake and you have to at
least apologize. It wont make this all right but its a start.
Now what do you have to say for yourself?!
I--I didnt mean to. I wasnt gonna shoot anybody -- really.
I just wanted to scare those guys so theyd quit b-beating me up.
Todd suddenly became more animated. The fear in his voice was plain to
hear.
If you were having trouble with some boys at school why didnt
you tell me? his mother demanded.
It wasnt at school exactly it was on the way home but if I came
running to you, itd be babyish and cowardly. Dad says a man fights
his own battles and I tried but they kept on winning, the boy admitted
shamefully.
Well, there were three of them and they were bigger than you,
Johnny put it. Its not likely youd have been able to win
in such an unfair fight.
I know so thats why I got the gun. Dad calls guns the great equalizer
I just wanted the odds to be equal is all.
I dont care what Dad says. Guns are dangerous and no way to solve
anything. If you didnt want to tell me or anyone else, why didnt
you just run the other way like Stevie told me he did? Mrs. Ridgeway
wanted to know.
Only cowards run away, Todd declared.
Thats not entirely true, Johnny said. There are times
when you should fight like if its something you believe in but when
a fight is as unfair as that one was, theres nothing cowardly about
running away. They were the cowardly ones. Theres certainly nothing
brave or manly about ganging up on someone smaller than you.
Youre a grown up. You dont know what its like,
Todd complained.
I was a kid once and, as it happens, I was on the small side and there
was this kid named Sluggy Wilson. He was big for his age and he was also
dumb. He was three years older than me and he was in the same grade. He seemed
to think that he could make up for that by being the meanest kid in school.
He wanted kids to be too scared to pick on him, I guess so he made it his
business to pick on us first. I was one of the smallest so he made me his
target. At first I tried to stand up to him and his cousins but it didnt
do any good. They always won. My friend Julie suggested I run away. Like
you I figured that was the cowards way out but Julie told me that
youre only a coward if you run away from fights about something you
believe in. The more I thought about it the more I realized she was right.
The only thing that a fight with Sluggy was about was him getting the pleasure
of beating me up. I sure didnt want to give Sluggy any pleasure so
I started running away. At first he and his cousins chased me but I always
got away. Finally they gave up but not before I became the best runner in
school. When I got older I even got a chance to go to a much better high
school because of my running ability. So learning to run paid off. Where
would getting beat up by Sluggy have gotten me?
Todd thought about what Johnny had said for a few minutes. I thought
having the gun would make them stop, he said, but it didnt
scare them at all. They thought it was a toy gun. That made me mad.
Mad enough to shoot one of them? Johnny asked.
Maybe. I dont know but I sure never meant to shoot you.
I know you didnt.
I- I wish I could take it back.
Thats the problem with bullets, Todd. Theres no taking
them back, Johnny told him seriously.
I dont care what my dad says. Im never touching a gun again.
I dont even care if he says Im not a real man! Todd
vowed.
A real man makes his own decisions about what he believes in,
Johnny stated quietly.
Dont you worry, Todd, you dont ever have to touch a gun
again. I said so. I think Ive been taking the cowards way out
too by letting Dad have all the say when it comes to guns but no more. Im
going to stand up for what I believe in and I believe guns cause more problems
than they solve. If Dad doesnt think its safe to live in California
without guns, we can just move back to Ohio where they dont have this
stupid cowboy mentality! Mrs. Ridgeway was angry at her husband and
maybe men in general so she glared at the men in the room.
Im not a cowboy, Roy assured her.
Me either, Johnny said. Im an Indian.
I know, Todd said seriously. I can tell by your hat. Im
really sorry I shot you, Mr. Gage.
Me too, Johnny matched his tone and tried to ignore the hat remark.
He was sure hed hear far worse when Chet saw his bandage.
I wont ever shoot anybody again. Im gonna start practicing
running.
Im glad to hear that. I bet youll be a great runner. If
you work real hard you might even get into the Olympics someday.
The Olympics? Really?
Why not? All you have to do is work hard at it.
Come on, Mom, I wanna go home and start practicing!
Okay, Todd, okay. I want to thank Mr. Gage for his help.
My pleasure, Johnny told her. He had been feeling pretty sorry
for himself over the whole thing but somehow he now felt that there was a
purpose behind it all. It might have been wrong for him to undermine what
the boys father had been teaching him but the father was wrong. No
matter what he thought about guns, he had no business pressuring a seven
year old into thinking that guns were the answer to every situation.
With that the boy and his mother left. The doctor thanked him also and left.
Johnny realized that Roy had been pretty quiet throughout this whole thing
and a quiet Roy was generally a disapproving Roy.
I know what youre gonna say, Roy, I had no business saying anything
that might come between a boy and his dad but---
Thats not what I was gonna say at all, Roy interrupted.
Far from it. What I was gonna say was, when youre feeling better
could you come and tell that same story to Chris? If hes ever bullied
I want him to know theres an alternative to fighting. I dont
think I could say it nearly as well as you did.
Really?! Johnny was surprised.
Really. You done good, Junior, real good, Roy said quietly.
You know, Roy, I think maybe I could eat some more of that stuff Enrique
made after all.
Stuff?! Enrique said returning to the room. Its not
stuff its -- oh you gringos would never be able to pronounce it right.
I may as well give up.
Speaking of giving up, no luck in finding Elena? Johnny was
hopeful.
You wish, Johnny, Enrique laughed. She just went on her
break with me.
Thats where you been all this time, Roy commented, very
much in senior partner mode.
Not all of it. That child psychologist was looking to bring that kid
in here to see if Johnny could get through to him so I waited till they left
to come in. I guess it worked cuz the kid dont look like a zombie no
more.
Yes he seemed much better when he left. Still this whole thing
shouldnt have ever happened. I dont even blame the kid as much
as the father, Roy said angrily.
Elena told me that the father is that guy whos on TV all the
time talking against stronger gun laws. Hes a real jerk to do that.
Every punk with a TVs gonna figger hes got a whole pile of guns
in his house that are ripe for the taking, Enrique commented.
Whos gonna be dumb enough to try and break into a house if they
know the homeowner has guns? Roy wondered.
It dont work like that, Roy. See, if that guy surrounds himself
with guns instead of having just one its a sure bet that hed
never have the cajones to really use one. Street thugs could get those guns
away from him or hit the place when he wasnt home. No sweat.
Roy had never thought of that and he knew that Enrique knew a lot more about
the way street criminals would think since he had two brothers who were street
criminals. He remembered that one of the cops had said something similar
the other day. He hoped that Todd and his mother would convince Jed Ridgeway
to get the guns out of the house or move back to Ohio before they could cause
any more tragedy for the family. Guns didnt equal the playing field
they just made it a much more dangerous place, he decided. There had to be
better answers and theyd better find them before things got even
worse.
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